Something

And I think that something is summer.

It's nice that the days can pass without your permission; I'm sure I would be stuck on a day in April. I still haven't figured things out, but I have lots of new clothes (and friends) which is exciting, and quite a bit of new music too. Also, I take long runs now, which beats the fuck right out of me. Right out. By the end of each session, I feel like I've being having sex all my life, and never had a good night's sleep. Being finished school is great, though I barely made it. I've forgotten all about it. And thus im relieved.

My life has always been boy-centric; I had my first boyfriend at four, his name was Matt. Pretty much ever since then I've revolved my life around the pursuit of romance. This makes things very complicated sometimes.

Sometimes.

Sometimes I'm not sure I want any of it, and I tell myself that this is the only way to be. However, it is that unavoidable facet of instinct that drives us to feeling something for someone. ( Or is it that I've just had too much to drink?). Whatever it is, it's usual a fruitless indiana-jones adventure to void lonliness. It only happens on silver screens.

I don't know what I am going to do this summer. I've got a new job at EB - a dream come true. I can now seethe in all the nerdy glory of the retail world. I guess i'll just socialise with friends, attempt to make some money and look forward to the future, those things will all happen. I will also go to some local shows, especially The Vasco Era.Crystal Castles next thursday at the Click Clocl. I want to go see Xiu Xiu when they come to Australia.Next year I may start university - i hope it's all i've ever dreamt of . Next week I will write a lot of words. The week after I will draw a lot of pictures. I may figure some things out; I will get more confused.

Stay out of trouble, and love :)